We were so happy-last post about father’s kidney cancer
It’s been three week since my father passed away. I can finally sit here and recall the whole thing. Three weeks ago, my mother called me when i was writing a post to record my father’s cancer status. this post is still a unfinished draft here, because my mother told me to go to Jinan immediately, she said my father was upset and he wanted to get out of hospital asap. so i brought a ticket that night, caught the train 10 mins before it left and arrived JiNan in the next morning.
I saw my father, I was shocked and can’t control my tear, I said i have to take a leak then i went to bathroom calm myself down and washed my face. His lower body is seriously dropsical, that’s because of the tumor oppressed his inferior vena cava. his scrotum is as big as a football, liquid oozes from it all the time. you may think that looks funny, but that really broke my heart. and his arms is as thin as a lath. he tried to smile when he saw me, but i can see his pain from his expression. i told him I’m here to pick you up,we will go to ZhenGuo tumour hospital as soon as your lower body went down(that’s where he always wants to go after he saw their ads. ). his doctor did give him some albumin and diuretic to help with his detumescence, but the situation didn’t go well. because he couldn’t lay down, we brought him a very comfortable wheel chair, the backrest is adjustable, so he could lay down a little bit, but then it turned up he sits on that chair all the day. that doesn’t help at all, only make his edema worse. we beg him to sit on bed for a while, but he didn’t want to. so, his radiation therapy plan was shelved.
our original plan was: 3d-crt + sutent –>relief pain + slow cancer growth –> go to a traditional Chinese medical tumour hospital. (where he insist to go.)
A couple of days later, he wanted to go out for some fresh air, that was about 8pm, so i pushed his wheel chair to take him out, i must be very careful, because even just a very slight jolt could make him painful. we stopped around a flower-beds, and we talked and laughed, he seemed alright and calm. then he said, ok let’s go back, im painful, i need some more painkiller.
we got back to ward, and I just about to go to ask nurse that my dad need an injection of dolantin, then…….it happened, heart attack, but i can’t remember exactly, I have to stop now! sorry, i will continue writting soon!
I recently lost my mother ot renal...
I’m sorry to mix the meaning of cancer
my grandfather has been a way from us by esophagus cancer for 10 years,having good life is the only way we could do
remember his pain,but don’t forget his smiles before the pain
being happy
yours
[Reply]
kenny Reply:
September 24th, 2009 at 7:24 pm
Thanks Lee, I think I’m ready to move on, and you are right, what we can do is live strong, live happy and live healthier.
[Reply]