too tired these day,im going to get drunk 2night~
After father was diagnosed renal cell cancer, mother took him back to our home town, because my aunty and uncle work in a pretty good tumour hospital,so he would be took care better there.
I have to stay in shanghai with my girlfriend, tons of works landed on our shoulders. i can’t concentrate on my work on anything, i can’t smile because i always worry about my father. but i have control my mood, i can’t let my bad mood influence the others.
my family, we were so happy at that time T.T
ok, my daily life is like this, i wake up at 7 in the morning, wash my face, put some clothes on, make sure there is enough water for two dogs,then catch my bus around 8, spend about 80 mins on the way~(that’s one reason i don’t like this city very much) , then start my work at office, the lucky thing is, I’m not busy at all, actually i want to be busy! because now my salary is… like a joke~but i have a share in the company, just we have not made any profit yet~(there’s something i just can not control by myself, that’s another thing.) i shame on myself, and mother said im the only one my father worry about on earth.ok…then, around 4 o’clock, i walk out of my office,catch the same bus to get back home, that’s another one and a half hour~ im at home around 5:30pm, start preparing dinner, i just cook the rice, my girlfriend will cook other dishes after she come back.(around 7:30pm, she get off work at 6) then feed dogs. It’s already nearly 9 o’clock when we finish our dinner. then it’s housework time, we spend about 1 hour on cleaning floors,washing dishes, and something like that. about 10 o’clock, we finally can get some rest, my gf normally watch TV for a while, i talk with my mother about father’s condition via Internet. then i start blogging on this site, my girlfriend to go sleep about this time. i have to spend a little time on this site, because of my poor English, and i must make sure all the information is accurate. Normally i go to sleep at about 1 o’clock midnight.
Then, a new day starts over again 6 hours later…
But, tonight, im going to give myself a happy time~ blog a bit, then i will watch a movie or play PC game for a while, haven’t play NBA 2K9 for a long time…then have a drink~get drunk and sleep, just forget everything bad for one night. i just feel tired, both physical and mental…but i think i can handle this,i will be strong. tomorrow, will be a new start.
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